Today has been an ok day...... I got to go the gym yay!!!!!! I also got to chat and skype w Ben so I was so happy. I'm pretty tired today so I'm just gonna share a poem my friend Jess sent to me awhile back.


this is for:
the sad army wives
the angry army wives and
the string army wive.
a toast to you for
falling apart and
pulling your self back together
because a payback isn't enough
a body pillow in your bed
is no consolation and
a web cam can never compare..
this is for the army wives
that cancel all her plans
to wait by the phone
even though the phone broke up and
cut off every time you spoke
you waited anyway.
be proud of the women that you are..
be proud to be an
ARMY WIFE!!

Well today is the one month mark. One month down and an estimated 12 to go : ( I guess there's good and bad thing's about that lol. I really want to say that the month has flown by but then i wouldn't be being honest. This has been the slowest month of my life. Even slower then his first month of Basic and I didn't know it was possible for anything to top that month. I was so upset when he left bc of the time apart and bc of the the fact that we had to say our "see ya laters" 2 days early bc I was leaving on a family vacation to Florida. It also really stunk that i couldn't really enjoy Florida bc he had just left , and I didn't have a very good attitude to my family in participating in things. Sorry about that guys. Especially to you MOM <3.>
Anyways, this is gonna be a long journey but one I'm gonna have to get used too. I'm sure I'll see my fair share of deployments in the next 18 1/2 years. But I'm a strong women and I have GOD on my side to help me through. BTW I'm gonna write Ben another poem I think. The first one was wrote around 1am spur of the moment at my parents house... hopefully this one will be a little more structured although I'm still very please w the first one. Well I'm gonna get off here. Sweet dreams to all.
P.S. Day 2 of Nutirsytem and no cheating yet. Can't wait for the gym tomorrow.

Today was awesome... I went to my POC class and got officially certified lol. Then I came home and cleaned pretty much my whole house besides my bedroom and I washed and folded all the laundry. Well somewhere in between me cleaning my doorbell rang and I had My nutrisystem and 2 dozen red roses at my door. I was estatic. The roses are beautiful and the card was like a dream or something it was sooooo sweet. I love my husband. I already took lots of pictures of them and can't wait for them to open up. My nutrisystem food look's pretty good so now the journey of loosing 50 pounds begins and i;m already bummed bc i can't go to the gym tomorrow.. but sat I will be all over it haha. Poor Zach (the little boy I babysit) doesn't feel very good today and already went to sleep ... I'm sure he' ll wake up soon though and i hope so bc he's so cute to play with. Well gonna get off here now.
I love you Benjamin

Today has been busy let me tell ya. I woke up not feeling good at 4am , but when i woke up again at 10:00 I felt fine. I went shopping, got lied to by best buy about not having a new shipment of my laptop and then went there and they had it, went to lunch w Jess, and Dinner and a movie w Theresa. I love that girl!!!

Also Michelle Duggar added me as a friend on Facebook .. she only has 56 friends so I'm so freakin excited lol.

For those wondering Miley is still doing good and already back to her hyper self lol. To make the day even better my Nutrisystem has been shipped so I should be getting it soon!!!!

Now something cute I found online:

The Army Wife Prayer
Dear Lord,
Give me the greatness of heart
to see the difference between duty and his love for me.
Give me understanding that I may know,
when duty calls he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
to fill the time when he's away.
And Lord, when he's in a foreign land,
keep him safe in your loving hand.
And Lord, when duty is in the field,
please protect him and be his shield.
And Lord, when deployment is so long,
please stay with me and keep me strong.
Amen

A Poem to My Love

To be an Army wife,
mean's so much to me
I married a soldier brave and strong,
who wants to keep our country free.

On January 26th he boarded his flight
he stood tall and ready to fight.
Saying goodbye is hard when you care,
now each day for a year begins with prayer.

I know he's equipped to do his job
and I have fatih in the men at his FOB.
The wife's become sisters, always there for each other
just as each soldier stands by their brother.

The time seems to be going by slow
yet Ben's already missed 3 day's of snow.
We just found out R&R is near
but those 10 months apart are what I fear.

This journey is going to be long
full of tears, fears, and pain
but in God's will he'll be back soon
driving me insane.

I can't wait baby to see your face
to hold you close in a familiar place.
I love you PFC Benjamin.



I've havn't wrote many poems so please noone make fun of it.... i tried!!!

02/21/10 Today's Thought!!!

My thought for today is do you think it is ethical for the Duggar family to continue to not use birth control and to keep having more children???

My personal opinion is that everyone pretty much does what they want to do in today's world , and how can you tell someone how many kid's they can and cannot have. The Duggar's seem to be a very happy family and despite their large number of children they still find time to teach them good ethics and their family religion. All of there kid's seem happy and have nothing but good thing's to say about each other.
One concern I've noticed many people have is how do they pay for that many children and form the info I've gathered they own several rental properties, have more then one book out and of course have their TLC show so I'm pretty sure that no their not rich w that many kid's but the income they have is more then enough to allow them to live comfortably.
Also do you think it is wise for them to continue to have more children do to the fact that Josie was a primee and that the baby and mom would have an extreme risk???
.... I think that they are fully aware of the health risk's and that they shouldn't be judged if that's a risk their willing to take. I also believe personally that they will continue to have more children and I say "more you go Michelle and Jim Bob".